Anger Management

A fool gives full vent to his anger,
but a wise man keeps himself under control. - Proverbs 29:11


I thought that lately, I've been better equipped to deal with my anger problems. Apparently not.

I had an interestingly trying day yesterday. Had only a few hours of sleep, woke up early, and had something happen to me which totally lit up my fuse.

Then on my way to the pathetic place which passes as an education institution, I encountered so many vehicles driven by inept beings.

The whole day just kept getting worse, with every situation involving annoying emissaries of the human race.

*sigh*

Of course, with the luxury of hindsight, those 'annoying' incidences weren't very annoying. It was my mood, my internal conditioning, which made me view external circumstances with such irritation.

And it was so tempting to be a fool, to give full vent to my anger. I could feel myself losing control sometimes, teetering on the brink of insane rage...

...wanting to bash someone up...blood boiling and roaring in my ears...

...then the silver cross hanging on my neck touched my skin and I was brought back up to the surface, gasping for sanity.

Take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ...

He's working in me, refining me. But it's a lifelong process. I can't wait for the day when I can declare that I'm 100% anger-free!

Search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!

I may not be sinless, but I'm learning to be more Christlike every single day. Thank God for His mercy and grace!