Just Feel Better

She said I feel stranded

And I can't tell anymore

If I'm coming or I'm going

It's not how I planned it

I've got a key to the door

But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know

Part of me says let it go

That life happens for a reason

I don't, I don't, I don't

Because it never worked before

But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better

Tell me what to do

You know I can't see through the haze around me

And I'd do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way

Girl I need a change

And I'd do anything to just feel better

Any little thing that just feels better

~Just Feel Better, Santana & Steven Tyler

I love this song. I know, I know, I know Steven Tyler looks like some Halloween scarecrow on drugs in the music video, but it's a nice song all the same.

I guess the lyrics get to me. They remind me of when I was young and lost, how it was so hard to feel good.

How darkness was ever present to such an extent that I did not know how to live without it. How I was so comfortable with depression, it seemed like my twin.

I thank God those days are over!

I didn't realize how dark my life was until I got to know Jesus. It's very much like sitting in your room in the evening with the sun about to set; you never realize how dark the room is until someone switches on the lights.

And to imagine the multitudes out there who wander about in the darkness without even knowing that it is dark! These are the ones who would do just anything to feel better. Sadly, the things they do to feel better often end up making them feel worse.

The devil's vicious cycle.